Downcasted Chapter 3

Downcasted

#Chapter 3


#Jay's POV

It's been up to thirty minutes in here at this school..
I just sat on a flower pavement, beside the parking lot as I felt so bad for coming out without saying 'bye' and 'Thank you' to her.

Damn it!! I don't even know her name!

People passed without looking to me.
Obviously, no one was indeed seeing me.
I was starting to believe I had become an invisible being..
But how? What happened to me!
How the fuck did I end up this way?

I tried getting up to leave but I couldn't just do it cos I still wanted to see her and I felt so sure she would come back to search for me.

I waited..

Waited...

Waited!

But she didn't come...
Everyone left.. Teachers left... No one else was left here except the two securities and some school cleaners..

The gate got locked.

It was dusk and I wondered what the time would be now?
Suprisingly, I wasn't feeling a tiny hunger.
Not even thirsty.
Well,not so suprising cos I got no idea who I am really now.

No one sees me except her.
I wanted to see her.
She is the only one seeing me..
I wanna let her know that she is the only one who sees me and ask her why she is?
I wanted to ask her why am this way? and ask her so many questions..
Also let her know that I had to creep away to avoid her getting too afraid (or not tho) when she finds out her kid sister isn't seeing me.
Or would her kid sister see me too?

I pushed my front hair and sighed.

I waited for her for a long time I guess was up to an hour and when she never showed up, I stood up and walked out towards the gate.

Foolish! I didn't even think about this?
What if she came back to search for me and then finds me and start calling me and talking to me..
Damn! The securities would sure think she's going crazy?

But! Uhh! Im so fucking confused..

I got to the gates... And yes it was locked.. I wouldn't have mind if it was unlocked and i'do just open it and walk out... And the securities could spend the rest of their day wondering how the gate opened and closed back.

But all the same, I tried seeing if I could open it, but it was causing some noise and it attracted one of the securities...

So I took my hands out of the gate locks and tried resting my back on the gate to think of what to do but then,..

I just found myself OUTSIDE and out of the gate!

Holly shit!!

I stared at the gate.... then at the people, cars,everything my eyes got..

No one was looking my way.
Cos they can't see me, yeah!

After wondering what just happened, I breathed, shrugged, put my hands into my pockets and walked away.

I need to find a bus heading to Tur Moel.
I need to get home..

I walked on...
I got to some place where people got too crowded..
I joined to walk over to the other side where I could see a long red streetcar heading for Tur Moel..

I walked slowly with others..
They were bodies touching me, hands hitting me but I wasn't feeling them and they weren't feeling me as well.
No one looked at me.

No one glared at me to walk slowly! just like they were hurling at others..

But then,...

“Fuck!?” I yelled out as I felt someone pass through me..

A man with long sleeves funny shirt and bulky trouser, Fat and tall! with his briefcase in his hands..

I swallowed and try to recollect what just happened when I felt another person pass through me.

“Fuck it!” I yelled out... Almost hitting the fucking redhair girl.

But I held myself.. But when another person walked pass through me.. I felt so angry and hit him hard on his neck..

He yelled out too loud.

He felt it!! Come'on he felt it!

He held his neck and then thought it was the redhair girl..

Got no idea what happened cos I soon got to the streetcar and went in.

I guess the guy didn't do anything to her.

I found a seat beside a cute lady and sat down. But just as the tram was about to leave, a tall brawny guy with bald shaved head approached and knowing fully well he was gonna seat in this seat I am, I quickly stood up and stood strait, resting myself at the back of the seat in front.

The guy came over and sat down on the seat I was and so I was standing at his front, looking at him.

Bad! this is fucking bad!

“Hey baby.. you look really beautiful..” He whispered to her. It was a whisper but I could hear it.

The lady blushed and smiled stupidly.

“Fuck it.!” I said out and checked to see if anyone heard me and is looking at me but there was nothing as such.

I searched with my eyes for any empty seat but there was none.
The one the guy sat was already occupied by fat woman.

The tram began moving...

I heard no fucking choice but to stand.
I stares outside through the windown.

The guy kept whispering shits to the lady and some of them were freaking funny and stupid.

“...got a seat there but seeing such a cute one like you.. Damn, I couldn't keep my eyes away.. Gotta do something.. so I came over and wow, this seat was empty..”

Empty!
When I was sitting right there!

This gotta be a dream.. I gotta wake up from this fucking nightmmare!
…………………

We got to Tur Moel and I tried not to be the last person to get down.

It was getting dark already and I found my way to my home.
I know mom and Vitoria would be freaking looking for me.

Im just wondering if im gonna be invisible to them too.
Or they're gonna see me just like the girl did?

It took me like twenty minutes to get home.
The gates were closed and resting on it, I went through it and saw myself inside our house.

Weird! too weird and scary..
Im scared at who I am now and I fucking needed to know who I am now.

I looked around and mom is home cos her car is parked. As usual beside her little rose garden.
Vitoria's too was parked so the both of them are home.
I walked to the porch, over to the door, inhaled and pressed the doorbell.

It rang.

I heaved a sigh of relieve and waited.
Few seconds, I heard mom's voice.

“Oh.. That must be Jay! I'll go see. He got to tell me where he's been all night and all day! That boy!...”

Then her voice got nearer.

“A son... who keeps giving his mom troubles and headache.. Im gonna deal with him. He crept out last night without telling anyone!”

I remembered. I never told her where I was going last night.
I was going to a night club and telling mom would only make me miss it which I would never wish to.

Soon, the door opened.
She wore her favourite pink singlet and rosy flower pyjamas trouser.

I looked at her with that peading smile that I always give her each time I do wrong.. But she didn't act like I was there
She was just looking around.. searching for someone who stood in her front.

“Jay? Jay? are you the one who pressed the doorbell? Who did.. Jay?” She kept saying and searching.

Then it occured to me that my mom wasn't seeing me too.

Her face grew pale after searching in vain and she made to walk in and I followed her but she shut the door before I could get in but I passed through it and went inside with her at my front.

I saw my sister dressing the dinning table.
She's two years older than me.

“Vitoria?” I called but she didn't even look..
She didn't see me too.

I felt tears gathering in my eyes.
“Fuck it!” I yelled out so loud.

Mom turned to her.

“No one was outside.” She said.
“Mom, im sure it's Jay and his pranks. Have you forgotten how stupid he can be?” Vitoria said.
“Vitoria. Im so worried. He never stays out this long. Im scared. His phone is switched off. Vitoria don't you think your brother is in harm?” Mom said, tears already in her eyes.
“He'll come back mom. This had never been the first time of him staying out this long.” Vitoria said.

Yeah.. She's right. But I always come back with framed up excuses.

“God.. I need Jay here. It's getting dark Vitoria.” Mom said.

I shut my eyes, opened them back.

“Mom but im here. Can't you guys just see me. Im here!” I said.

No one heard him..

I tightened my fist in anger and walked out into my room.

Im fucking tired of this!!
Who the hell have I suddenly become!